Dear Lynn,
Your plight brings me to a firm belief in Psalm 77:14..."You are the God who performs miracles; you display your power among the people.". I pray for this miracle for you. Dealing with HD is painful enough as I am a 38 year old person with HD. My prayer for myself is small..that I can get my girls through high school without affecting them in an emotional or physical way. My girls are young and I would have years ago not wanted them to grow up, but now I look forward to the time when they are out of the house and in college. Not for myself but for them..their safety..physically and mentally. So far everything has been great...by now my mom was already in and out of mental hospitals..I'm not like her at all..I believe my faith has carried me past that. Don't get me wrong, I want my girls to live with me forever..we are perfect and I adore them and my husband. I'm just afraid at times the HD will affect our relationship. So, you see, we don't need large prayers..every little step is essential in our life and important. I take pride in working on my daily life with them instead of focusing on the future I won't have. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say. They are my life and my job is to give them the best little life they can have and to be the "rock" for them as God is my "rock" for me. All my faith is in God..what is meant to be is meant to be. Enjoy every second, every moment, every breath, every smile..Of course I'm sure you do this anyway. I don't look at HD as a death sentence..I know that there will be a cure...I look at it as a peak into what may be my future so guess what? People I never tell I loved them..I do now...people I never let pass me in the checkout counter....I do now...My friends, family, and others that mean so much to me...I tell them how much now...I NEVER take anything for grant....I talk and communicate better with everyone because I know that tomorrow is not guaranteed for any of us....and life is full of genuine and cherished moments...Even if it is this perfect blue ocean that I live near...or the perfect sunset...sunrise...the warmth of the sun..my child smiling and beaming at me in admiration...being a loving wife...being a loving daughter of a mother with HD...listening to her ramble on by phone for 2-3 hours every Sunday....It's all worth it because I am contributing to someone else's happiness...Trust me..It's the ultimate life with or without HD..Yes I do pray for a cure but I also pray for my faith to carry me through anything and the strength to endure all. No one could ever understand anothers predicament but I hope and pray you will find some peace through all of this..I'll bet your children adore you.. Love and special hugs for you and God Bless....Sunshine Cindy