Living Positive

Testing Positive for Huntington's Disease

Testing positive for Huntington's Disease is one of the most difficult life challenges that one can face. I found it to be the equivalent of Alice through the Looking Glass. Everything is upside down and backwards, nothing is normal. It is like your entire world as you have known it to be has changed. There is life before Huntington's and life after finding out you have Huntington's. While things will never be the same as they were before testing positive -- and really, how could they be? --

Video Documentary: Pierre's Story

Rob Hopping unveils the story of Pierre Loranger who shares his experiences and his life living with Huntington's Disease. Rob offers us the first part of a three part series. Rob became aware of Huntington's Disease when a friend of his tested positive for the gene. After spending time with HD patients and their families, he realized that more awareness and resources are needed to fight the disease. Rob is a documentary filmmaker living in Seattle Washington. Click on the following l
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Public Drunkeness

It is such a shame that people living with the early stages of Huntington's are so often mistaken for people who have been drinking. Although it is understandable with the HD symptoms including slurred speech, bad balance and slowed thought/response - understanding that does not make the accusations any less hurtful when they happen. Being wrongfully accused of anything hurts the spirit, but being a non-drinker and being accused of being impaired by alcohol is a major blow to the self esteem.

Finding Support

Finding support for HD can sometimes be a daunting task, especially if you are new to the HD world and do not know the different things available. Everyone involved in the HD family needs that support, not just the Phd. Family and friends are our best bet for support. These are the people who know all your faults but love you anyways. Opening those lines of communication is vital to everyone involved. Talk about what is going on and how everyone feels about it. Some HD families will not di


There are many different promises made around Huntington's Disease. The need to make sure all your bases are covered can be a driving force. There are so many things to deal with and it is impossible to predict in advance all the possible scenarios of the future. I have my living will signed and ready, a power of attorney picked but not legalized, yet. At 37 years old I should not have to be thinking about these things, but the paper work is a necessary evil, unfortunately. For when the day


The emotions involved in HD are overwhelming at times. It is like our sensitivity meter is doing overtime. Everything seems much bigger than it actually is. Having HD means living with a roller coaster ride of emotions every day. It starts with irritation, irritation becomes anger, and then anger becomes rage on rare occasions. So nipping irritation in the the bud is sometimes a way to steer clear of both the anger and extreme anger (rage). In one of the HD videos I was lent by the HSC, it

Body Memories

One of the many challenges of Huntingtons Disease, is the loss of body memories. Its like our bodies have forgotten how to do the hundred different things that it used to do automatically. Now even the simplest things require a great amount of thought and concentration. Someone once did an experiment between a person with HD and another person with Alzheimer's. They had both of them spin a record manually with their fingers. The next day they asked the person with Alzheimers if they remember


Feelings of hopelessness, helplessness, and extreme depression are common in most people/families effected by HD. When your world seems to be out of control and you are overwhelmed with sadness it is easy to fall into that deep dark hole and just stay there. However, the longer you stay down, the harder the climb out will be. When you are depressed for too long you lose the ability to make the happy chemicals you need to balance your brain. I was offered antidepressants by Doctors for years

Anxiety and Panic Attacks, Part Two

Being prone to anxiety and panic attacks is kind of like carrying around a loaded gun; you just never know when it is going to go off on its own. I find it controls my life more than any of my other symptoms, and yet it is invisible to those around me. I try to avoid the things that I know can set me off, but that is not always possible or practical. Sometimes you have no choice but to force yourself to step outside your comfort zone. And that's where the fear lies. I am not afraid of othe

Anxiety and Panic Attacks

I am always torn between forcing myself to venture out into the real world, or staying within the safety of my comfort zone. I seem to only be able to take so much mental stimulation, and then I need to escape so I can shut down for awhile. The more noise and commotion I have taken in, the more quiet time I need to replenish myself mentally. When I am overstimulated and in a situation where I need to escape and can not, then I zone out for awhile. It is really my only means of escape. I am ne

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